I don’t know what the weather has been like for all of you but here in San Jose it has been raining for a few days. I love rain (when I’m inside). I love watching it and hearing it when I sleep is the most soothing sound. I know we often look at rain as a nuisance, something that comes to destroy plans or keep you trapped in but I like to think that rain comes to reveal more beautiful things. It comes to wash away the old and nourish the new. It comes to unveil things that have been hidden and while frustrating at times forces us to grow. Happy Thursday y’all! The weekend is coming around that corner fast!
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"8.5 YEARS SOBER 💙
8.5 years ago (06/24/2010), my chaotic bender of a life came to a screeching halt, landing me in handcuffs yet again. My chaotic bender full of motel rooms, non-stop drug use and endless bottles of booze. Life spiraled downhill nearing a point of no return, faster than it ever had before. The lifestyle being led was one with only three possible outcomes: jails, institutions or death.
8 years ago, at 6 months sober, there was a bottle of Smirnoff in my hand, contemplating throwing it all away. Palms sweating, alcoholic mind racing, feeding me nothing but good reasons to take that first drink. Still not sure what kept me from hitting that bottle, but thankful to whatever it was. Reality is, I may not be here today to tell my story had I decided to drink that night...
My life is owed to a friend I consider family, who told me he would only post bail if I went to a meeting with him. Shaky and sick, I stepped back into the rooms, full of guilt and shame, and picked up a 24-hour tag. So absolutely grateful to say I now have 8.5 years worth of 24 hours!
Present day, I’m still growing. I’m still learning. I’m still trying to be a better person every day. Life isn’t perfect. I make mistakes. I fall on my face, and I fail even when I give it my all. But because of my sobriety, I always get back up. I get back up and keep fighting. I keep fighting, keep moving forward and keep growing as a person.
Today, my life is everything I thought it could never be while still using. The person I’ve become and am proud to be; all of the blessings in my life now, all the love I’m surrounded with is because of my sobriety. Absolutely all of it! So to the addict still suffering, for me and all the loved ones in your life, please don’t ever give up on yourself. Until we are six feet under, there is always hope!
RECOVERY IS POSSIBLE! 🙏❤️"
Indeed it is!! Thanks for sharing your story of hope and inspiration @terin.devoto Congratulations on the amazing accomplishment of 8+ years sober!! 👏
‼️An issue most, if not all, Men are faced with and struggle with‼️
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Man have I struggled in the past but I am always educating myself and striding forward.
I am not afraid to ask for help.
Men always wait until crisis point to ask for help, in some cases, asking never comes.
Some see it as a weakness.
Some see it as being judged.
Some see it as unacceptable.
Or all the above.
I have felt all of the above emotions, what did i do? I kept them locked inside for A LONG TIME!
Feeling as if you are alone and you are the only one with this problem and you desperately want to talk to someone, anyone, you just dont know how to and who to talk to.
You cant turn to your mates, they will take the piss and say stop being soft.
You cant turn to your missus in fear she wont think your as masculine as she thought you were.
When in reality, and after alot of talking myself into it, i did turn to a select few and finally said "im not doing as well as i thought" and let it all out. As soon as the words left my mouth i immediately felt the sense of relief and weight dropping off my shoulder when the people i spoke to listened and reassured me.
I had a speed bump but after sharing my emotions my head is a lot clearer now after asking for help and guidance with my personal and professional life.
Who knows where i would be now if i didnt ask for help...
(you guys wouldnt be getting all these amazing quality videos 😉) .
So, thanks to the people that listened and have helped me along the way and a big thanks to everyone who loves my shit, listens to my shit and contributes in me being able to do what I love every single day!
Yesterday was the worst day in a while for my anxiety and i hit panic attack zone... (scary) I also really shouted at the children and had the worst mum guilt which added to it... Now whenever I talk about mental heath I end up with messages and people jumping ship... I have had a massive rant in my stories (thanks to those that stay with my rantings)
Can I be a good mum with anxiety and depression is what one of the messages were about.. my response was, well it's a bit late to put them back and one of them has survived nearly 16 years so at the moment so far it been alright.
I originally joined instagram and started a blog for my daughter so she could see life was not always filtered and these squares are not always the truth and actually life and parenting is hard.
This has given me something else to over think but instead of letting it eat me I'm going to use as material for my next blog post... watch this space.
Have an awesome Friday beautiful people
First 6 miles + of 2019. 🎉🎯 Last September I said my running was over after 2 years of running for a great cause I felt my body particular my hip couldn’t take anymore. ⛑
However with a wee bit of rest, therapy and encouragement, I have decided to tackle 2 races that I have ran since they began, The Great Stirling Marathon and Great Aberdeen Half.
This year am running for me, I have unfinished business with both, in terms of goals and I will keep them to myself just now.....but with less runs and more focus on training I am confident I can achieve these
One thing is for definite I have missed the miles, the feeling of open space and the time to clear my head and reflect! Running really is good for the mental health in us all!! #mentalhealth#exercise#running#marathontraining#matathongoals#headspace#openroad#runningman#stirlingmarathon2019#aberdeenhalfmarathon#goals
He said, “you are a wise woman” and I remembered, I am.
Depression is such a judgemental asshole! He picks at you at your worst by holding up your flaws to his fluorescent beam! He magnifies your imperfections worst then a cheap glow mirror. He tells you you’re not good enough and you buy it because you’re exhausted of the constant, negative refrain. You then isolate yourself from the very friends, family and support networks and greatly diminish your chances of getting the support you need! You’re then set to self destruct mode and the clock is ticking!
For years, people who don’t have the slightest clue told me how I should feel! They said, “look on the bright side”, “others have it worst” “be grateful” etc! These messages are not wrong but usually at best uninformed, incomplete and at worst simply condescending. To understand what a person with depression goes through, you need to have gone through a form of it yourself, feel yourself trapped in a dark and foreboding maze that tells you death is the best and only way you will be free of the constant barrage of your flaws, faults, mistakes and imperfections being paraded in front of you.
Many of us would not tolerate an abusive friend but we put up and shut up about depression. I have decided that is enough.
My name is Audra. I have suffered from depression since I was 7 years old and I will not let any shame of this disgusting and often debilitating disease get the better of me. I know who I am and I know my story. I have taken control of the narrative. Fuck depression.
To any fellow champions who know what I’m talking about, stand up, be heard, speak your truth and get the healing you need because you are beautiful, valuable and deserve to be happy! Don’t listen to the religious bullshit that tells you not to seek help because any god who doesn’t want you free and happy, is not a god you should worry about!
Working from home today means snacking from home as well. On this morning’s snack plate we’ve got a sliced banana, alongside a dollop of @thecollectiveuk straight up yoghurt + @pipandnut chocolate orange almond butter for dipping. It also means I can take it slow today, as it’s felt like a bit of a whirlwind week.
I shared a poem on my stories by Mary Oliver, a wonderful poet who sadly passed away yesterday. It got me thinking of one of my favourite lines from her work “tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?” I used to ask myself this a lot. Although I’m in a much better place now than I was, I guess I still don’t know the answer. What is it that I plan to do? I feel swayed in many different directions at the moment and I feel as though I’m juggling many different plates. This weekend I’m hoping to slow down a little and just think. A little bit of contemplation time for me. Sometimes you get caught up in the daily grind that you forget to pause and think about where you are 💛 #mylifeisforliving
1741 hours ago
"Nothing has a stronger influence psychologically on their environment and especially on their children than the unlived life of the parent." - C.G. Jung
If your kid was going through something you are currently going through or holding themselves back from doing something that they want/need/should, the same things that you are currently holding yourself back from doing, what advise would you give them? Now act on your own advise👊
It’s better to admit when you don’t understand something, than it is to pretend to understand something you have no idea about. .
I have been here. I have felt this. I truly get it. It’s awful, but it’s not a life sentence. Let faith of the idea that change is possible flow to you. Follow it even when everything seems against you. Do not listen to anyone who says it’s impossible to heal. You can find your way out. .
You will find your people. Don’t give up. I see you, I feel you and I send love to you. Please message me if you need someone to chat too. You are not alone.
Did you know, NY was the first state to mandate mental health education In schools. As per NY law “ mental health is an integral part of our overall health and should be an integral part of our education in school”. If you live in NYC, you know how stressful it is to live in a big city so raising awareness about mental health is so important and education regarding the issue should start at a young age. #psychiatrist#psychiatry#mentalhealthawareness#mentalhealth
No one said it would be easy...right? Well, actually I think in so many ways the recovery space is becoming much like dieting. We’re presented with images of what it looked like for a few people who seem to be...well...coping so much better! Their words may talk about how hard it all was but somehow their lives seem so damn perfect now...don’t they?? Is it just me??
I look around and my life hasn’t actually changed that much since recovering. I’m not thin, I don’t drink smoothies (well, maybe a few in the Summer), and I don’t travel loads or arrange my office gear on a white background - I don’t even have an office!!!! And while what I say here IS true - I would do it all again in a heartbeat because I’m mentally so much healthier, at the end of it all, I’m still... me, I’m just less hungry. I still have bad days, and washing to do, and cleaning to avoid, and work to worry about, baby sick to clean up...yeah just all normal stuff really. And I think that’s what can make recovery hard too sometimes because when all of that gets a little bit (gasp) DULL then I still want to jump into the pool of escapism and just pretend I’ll be this amazing elegant person who will dress beautifully and travel more and be a Mum who always has a home cooked meal on the table every night and fun craft things planned (nah) ONE DAY.
That one day was always nice and comfortably in the future when I became “thin enough” and now I suppose I have to accept that’s just bullshit. Unless I want to do those things. And do I? Really? I suppose I’ll have to work out what I actually DO want to do and work out a REAL plan how to do it. Damn...now I’ve got to switch off TOWIE... •
911 hours ago
Even if you’re having a really bad day - You are doing amazing 🌈
Just being you is amazing!
Happy Friday everybody 💛
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On the same note as my lost post, and in light of how many people we’ve lost in the equestrian world recently due to this (Bradley being the main one), if any of you are EVER struggling with mental health problems, or think you might be struggling with them, please PLEASE talk to someone about it. I promise you, you’re not a burden for wanting to talk to someone about it, whether that be a professional, a family member or a friend. I’m always here if you need someone to talk to. As someone who struggles with mental health problems myself, I have a tendency to keep it all bottled up inside me until it’s too late to push it away and ‘fix’ myself in a way. IT IS NOT HEALTHY. You should never ever keep your feelings bottled away, whether it’s to do with mental health or not. Keeping things inside will only cause more pain and hurt in the long run and it will eat away at you.
The point of this post is to remind you all that you’re not alone, if you need someone, I’m here, I know the majority of you don’t know me personally but sometimes it can be easier to talk to a stranger about these things. Your parents will be there for you, your friends, your other family. They’ll all be there for you but you’ve got to ask for help, you’ve got to admit to yourself that you need help.
Please reach out if you’re struggling. Too many people get overlooked because they’re scared of being pushed away by asking for help. This is not always the case. There are always people willing to help no matter what your situation is. *** Posted on this account and @thatnaughtygrey.spam *** #mentalhealth#mentalhealthawareness
Quantos carboidratos devemos ingerir por dia para hipertrofia?
Sem ingerir a quantia necessária de carboidratos diariamente, não será possível construir o máximo de massa muscular possível. É como se uma parte do tempo que você gasta fazendo dieta e treinando fosse desperdiçada.
Por outro lado, ao ingerirmos carboidratos demais, podemos acumular gordura desnecessariamente.
Mais tarde teremos que perder essa gordura extra prolongando o período de definição, o que pode fazer com que mais massa muscular seja perdida durante o processo. Com isto mente, saber quanto carboidrato precisamos ingerir pode nos salvar semanas e até meses de trabalho duro, diminuindo o tempo que vai demorar para chegarmos ao objetivo desejado.
1011 hours ago
Emotional eating! One of my main issues... I am so angry I need celery! SAID NO ONE EVER!! 😂
211 hours ago
It’s very easy to lose sight of this. But when we take the time to go back to the essence of it all, we give ourselves that new boost we needed 🖤
211 hours ago
1721 hours ago
28 januari-4 mars -FULLBOKAD
Första kursen fokuserar på att lyssna inåt till din kropp. Du kommer under dessa sex veckor att skaffa dig en bättre kroppskännedom som du kan använda dig av under din yogapraktik. Enkel hathayoga som avslutas med lugn yinyoga.
18 mars -22 april
Andra kursen kommer vi ägna tid åt att förstå våra kroppars mobilitet och rörelsemönster. Kursen kommer dela upp kroppen i olika delar där varje klass ägnas åt en eller två leder och tillhörande muskelgrupper. Klassen kommer innehålla hathayoga samt mobilitetsövningar för att utforska och skapa större förståelse för din kropp .
6 maj -10 juni
Tredje kursen kommer vara en ren yinyoga kurs. En perfekt kurs för dig som vill hitta sätt att slappna av och varva ner lagom till sommarens semester. @emma_kumlien[email protected]