How's your New Year so far?🎀
Haven't posted since Xmas, busy season ugh💀
P.S. If the holidays and new year haven't gone your way just know I wish you the best & keeping smiling.
I believe in you & what you can do even if it's just getting up in the morning, it's a step forward💖🤘
Just look up😜 Much love always💋
• I pulled off your wings,
Then I laughed (Deftones-change) •
10 years ago I was figuring out what it meant to be me. I wear an armor of scars every day, each and every one defining my strength and compassion as a human being. I’ve lived through poisonous people, constant teasing regarding my appearance while growing up, my best friend passing away on my birthday, and now I’m in an ordeal with my pup and his health. My point is...life is filled with struggle and it never really goes away. But how I’ve learned to deal with these struggles has evolved in a way that surprises me daily. In moments of hurt, I fight for strength. While in the dark, I’ll battle for light. Every single scar is embraced and beautiful. I don’t want perfection- you learn nothing there. In the darkest hours, you come alive the most. 🖤 #strength#10yearchallenge#alternative#alt#evolve
29749817 hours ago
In 2009 I was a freshman in high school. I was still constantly bullied, especially for my size. I just started a relationship with a best friend that I thought I wanted dearly, but it ended up being one of the worst things to happen. I became emotionally and mentally abused, and the relationship was severely codependent. I wish I was that body size again, but this was also when I was at the height of my TaeKwonDo career and before my back injury. I would go on to transfer schools to be with a guy who I had previously attempted suicide over. He broke up with me, and that led to me transferring schools again, before I finally graduated online. I hate looking back at these photos because of the emotional pain it brings, especially knowing how much I hated my body at that time, and yet I would kill to have it back.
2019: Married to an amazing man, haven't self-harmed in over a year. Under so much more stress, but I am able to cope with it and my emotions to a vastly higher degree. I still don't smoke or drink, although my diet could use some help. This WILL be the year I love myself. I can't take much more of it.
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